Hello there, mina-san~

Hmm... Hmm... I found out some mind-BLOWING stories today from a tiny bird flying around campus.  Not a literal bird, but maybe most of you know what I mean.  It seems to me that I'm not alone after all, fighting with myself and fighting with everything that's been happening around me.  What do I mean? Well *shrugs*, I suppose that a few of you had figured what's up or something like that. No? Well, then, that's something you need to go figure, yo~

I mean, the world has so much to offer, and if you think the world is just pure CRAP now, then--you have really seen nothing yet because you either are going to live for a very longgggg~ time or maybe a short time.  I really have no pity for those who are always whining and complaining about the entire world and about how "horrible" their life is when really, it's not THEE most horrible thing yet--when you still have a "tomorrow" or "future" to be living through.  I mean, especially when we're still young and all--you have no right to go around, moping and seeking pity or anything like that.  Most of us forget that, I suppose...

And no, if you think you have any right going around, asking people if they wanted your pity and always complaining why you can't understand their answers--maybe you don't understand them because a) you're NOT in their shoes... Durr...and so, maybe you just have to dig a little deeper--understand their family, understand their wrongs and right, something--or b) they are complete BUTTHEADS--not telling you the truth, exaggerative, denying their wrongs and only talking of their rights, denying, denying, or just "victimizing" themselves and such *huffs*

I'm a bit angry at a few people in this world, maybe an old friend of mine for his baka-ness.

Anyway, this little bird of mine told me that I wasn't alone in my private thoughts.  Private so that I'm not willing to spill out the contents but contents so personal, I always thought it was only me and a few other peope who were alone in this world (Of course, I was also looking at the optimistic side).  But it's okay now, because this bird told me what I needed to hear. *sighs* So, I wasn't the only few, after all...the only one who saw everything.

Other than that, I've been looking for a Window out lately.  I don't know, but yes, like Mizu-chan pointed out, my aspirations and such is making me quite restless.  Why? Why not? Why, it's everything.

Sometimes, I wonder...why.  Why of the world.  Why of the rain.  Why of Life.  Why of my current self-doubts, whether or not I was even thinking "right"--whether or not I should take Life's crap--whether or not I should listen to those who I feel doesn't deserve being listened to--whether or not I should speak up--whether or not I should believe, trust, pretend, risk...

There are so many starfish, and there's so little time in this entire world.

I'm not willing to save them all.

But at least, I tried saving some.

Sometimes, I look to my right...and there's a person, who doesn't want to save ANY of them.

I resent people like that.

I trust little of them.


Love,

your Yoko-chan