Ohayo mina-san,

Yoko at your service~ Hmm... I guess since we're all (the Jammies and I) just starting to settle into our new spring classes comfortably (and for some, uncomfortably, because we have no idea why we picked such a boring/wtfudge/hard/time-consuming course to begin with)--I can only sum up what's been sort of going on recently.

Well, for my part--mainly because I am remaining oblivious to whatever's happening around me.

And did I mention that I have no idea what's going with Yoko's head as well?

It's pretty confusing, don't you think?

The definition and determination of your own feelings, regarding a person or so--and trying to figure out what is going within the current environment or situation you have just placed yourself in--carelessly and without a second thought in mind until now.  Confusing much? Yes, I intended to do that.  Very vague? Yes, I too happened to know that.  Why? That is for me to know, and for you to figure out.

I had been having the strangest moments when I would eat and think of someone and wish that they were there at that very moment with me.  Then, there are those times when I would talk to a person or just be sitting by myself--and think of someone else, someone I'd rather talk to during that very second.  Sometimes, I would be in class, and though I'm supposed to pay attention, my mind would wander off--thinking--

Honestly, I guess...I had always thought of them that way since the very beginning for the longest time.  I mean, before the Jammies came along and even during my time spent with them--I would stop for a brief second at what I was doing, whether I was on a trip in San Jose or Sacramento or whatever, and wish they were there with me.  However, for the longest time, I thought those were just friendly thoughts and so, I had brushed them aside and pretended like nothing had ever happened.  And now, I even wonder...how odd of me... I never pondered much about those kind of thoughts before until recently.  I had pretended to be oblivious and had always been oblivious for such a slow period... I was always so happy to see them whenever we'd meet, always--always happy.  Probably even more happier than I had ever felt when I'd meet with Jin-niichan (I'm sorry ;o;), Fuji-niichan (I'm sorry too!!!), and the others.  Sure, I'm happy when I see the Girls...but that seems like...a different "happy" for me.  I don't know how to explain it... :/

Muuu... I'm confused.

I never had such thoughts ever--ever, ever, ever--of such people until now.

I wonder...what is this?

When we first met, within the first 5 minutes of self-introduction, we quickly became friends--friends talking to one another like we've known each other forever.  Odd...because it took me a few days--like with the Jammies.  I felt comfortable and an instant complete trust because I knew that person was a good person, that they had a good heart.  They almost always made me happy.

Hmm...

But for now, I'll leave it hanging.  This mystery.  Gomen ne... I think I know the answer, but I have much more important matters to settle.


-Yoko