Konnichiwa, mina-san~~

First of all, I'd like to thank Konata-kun for all of his honesty put forth into the previous blog post.  I was really moved by his good words of wisdom, and I'll try to keep in mind that maybe I should calm down more and stop being so emo.  Recently, I have been rather sensitive, regarding the stress of college and personal heart-felt situations with those around me.  Why ponder upon the past and sob my eyes out on problems I don't wish to solve right now? Ugh... Anyways, yes, Konata-kun, I guess I'll see if we can get the same hotel.  If we can't, I won't mind switching back and forth, rooming with the Girls on a few days--and you guys on some other days XD It'll be fun!

Second of all, Jin-niichan (the mean but nice onii-chan I grew up with) has been in Happy Town for some time, and today--I'm supposed to see him.  The first reunion in 5 years, mina-san! He won't believe how much I've changed :D Although he can be such a big bully, I know that Jin-niichan means well.  He was always complaining that Yoko-chan was such a "crybaby" and that she should start "toughening up" or "grow up" more often :/ Muuu... Last night when he called Yoko-chan, I felt so teary afterwards, because...well...Yoko doesn't want Jin-niichan to go back up North :/ Selfish, but I used to always follow Jin-niichan and Fuji-niichan all the time while growing up.  They were always telling her what was "right" and what was "wrong", what's "bad" and what's "good."  Imagine...when I had to move away, I had suck in my pride, and I tried so hard to not cry in front of Jin, especially (I was scared he might yell at me and call Yoko a "crybaby" again =___= Muuu....).  Bahhh.... I hope that our time with him today would be good, and I have my camera :D !!! YE-AHHHHH~~~ >:D

Third...hmm....third...I've been having some serious issues with myself.  Although I don't like talking about it--because it makes me appear as a "weak little girl"--I guess...I've been having just serious weird issues.  Self-esteem-wise.  I don't know why...demo...the way some people talk to me these days is just hurtful, and though they probably don't mean it, they just hurt my self-confidence and self-esteem.  I know that there are probably just stuffs I'm not good at, such as dancing, and yes, I'm a total klutz and air-head... But I hate it when people seem to poke fun at it and make it seem like I'm a total "fake."  I don't act the way I am because I want to be "cute." I try to be as serious and "normal" (acting like my age) whenever I can--and I'm sorry if I can't be all dull and boring and "smart" all the time, demo...seriously, I'm trying to be as honest and hard-working as I can be--without upsetting those around me.  This is me, and you'd have to just deal with it and get over it.  I am who I am, and I won't change myself just because people don't like it.

Fourth: I've noticed that lately, people seem to wonder why there are issues I can't talk to them about or explain myself better, such as the way I react to particular topics.  And I just want to point out that I am sorry I can't explain myself better than I can now; however, I hope that you all don't think I'm being "childish" just because I "want to be."  Everyone has their own personal reasons why they react or behave a certain way, I believe, because all humans are creatures with Reason (or maybe for a few, no Reasons).  Otherwise, I try to be as "mature" as I can when analyzing/taking actions toward specific topics or situations.

Fifth: I want to congratulate Mizu-chan for her dance performance in the University's Theater show this past Friday night :) Even though the majority of us JAMMIES went home at around 12 or 1 AM (Wow, that was unexpected...), I still am glad that we all got together that night--and for some of us, the first time ever as a bigger group of Jammies.  I really do hope that we can hang out and eat together as a "family" again in the near future; for now, though, be safe, FUN JAM, and study hard or do well in school :D Take good care of your health also! >:O


Love,
Yoko :)