Dear Konata-kun,

I want to dedicate an entire blog for you and Kinata-kun* (I made it up for your brother~ HA! >:D).  If you want me to be honest, we should talk more often face-to-face, but that's okay.  Like you said, you and your brother had been really busy this past semester, and I know...I felt the shove toward you, and I knew I should've said something to you...or explained ourselves better.  Maybe it's better if the Girls have a say in this too, but I guess I'll just tell how I feel and see from my own perspective.

Truth be told, I felt as though we all began to drift  apart over summer break.  You and Kinata-kun did a lot of awesome anime-con traveling from here to there to here; we Girls were quite envious but we rooted you guys on.  We love you two a lot, and do you want to know something else? You two...were the closest things to "modern heroes"--for me, that is.  I admire you two a lot, probably more than you two would ever know.  Summer break had everyone...changed in many different ways.  There was so much we had to catch up on; yet, I felt...when we all try to do that, we couldn't--because we all didn't see each other all that often.  Especially with this semester.

So many things happened along the way towards the Fall semester.  If I could, perhaps...I could even tell you all about it.  There were good changes, bad changes, happy feelings, and just...heartbreaks, tragedies, maybe.  We all just sort of "grew up" on our own during those three months.  I was always busy with my Nazi okaa-san, Mizu-chan was "legally bound" to the house, and same with Sakana-san.  Gomen ne... I really wanted to spend so much time with you, Kinata-kun, and Anemone-san...  I was really sorry when she had to go to Nihon.  She was sorry too...

This semester had changed us all--some drastically--most for the worse or better.  I don't know where to start, Konata-kun.  Gomenasai... I wanted you to be a part of everything, honestly--I miss you and Kinata-kun so much...and the same with the Girls.  I want us to go to the way things were back then--not with just us, but with everyone--our new friends--that we Girls met so far. Some of us...met other friends, and it seems like this "some" has either lost their identity or are confusing themselves with another "self."  They aren't themselves anymore, Kinata-kun. Or maybe...it was "change."

We all seem fine on the outside...but I feel as though it's never "fine." Life would always be the one, throwing random crap-balls into our hair.

I have been told that I've changed this semester, but I'll tell you this: I haven't lost myself.

Maybe I'm just being conceited, but I'm not about to lose any "rationality" over something so small--such as "change" or because I met someone "new."

Truth be told, I don't understand anything anymore--it frustrates me because I try not to care too much about those around me.  People tell me to keep observing everything; yet, they also complain that they don't like what's going on. And what do they do? Nothing. I want to put things into action--to do something, and the people tell me not to do anything....yet, they have the guts to wait for someone to step up and say something? It wears me out.  I don't want de ja vu to happen over and over again. I can't stand by and watch such events unfold like that before my own eyes-- I'll stop there.

I'm sorry that you felt left behind.  I'm sorry that we can't tell you really--what's so "confidential." Konata-kun, we care so much about you.  Me and the Girls.  We don't want you to stress over something that involves mainly us--not you--when you have so much to work for, already--something like college work or other problems.  We know you're here, and to be honest, we first felt "left behind" by you and Kinata-kun as well.

I know you're probably hurting because no one's filling you in with the "confidential" stuffs, but...let me ask you this: Don't you have something "confidential" that you wouldn't want us to know, also?

I believe everyone has their own secrets and reasons for not talking about them.  Maybe this doesn't quite justify the way the Girls and I have been acting or been doing...demo...all I can say is that we haven't forgotten about you and Kinata-kun.  In fact, I'm really hoping that we all stay in the same hotel for Fanime again.  Last year's Fanime... You two have no idea how much you have changed my life; for the first time ever, I felt so blessed--so lucky to have met you two.  There are just so many things I'm so thankful for--that I just can't put into words.  Last year's Fanime? The BEST week I've ever spent--away from home, my parents, everyone that held me down until I met you Twins and the JAMMIES. 


And why am I taking Japanese this semester? You Twins are part of the reason, and so far, I'm loving it!


Also, we haven't totally abandoned the "Vocaloids" theme yet.  Now and then, I would think of new "Vocaloid" cosplays; so, please, don't think that just because we're into "Haruhi Suzumiya" now--that we're abandoning the "Vocaloids" theme.  It is because of you two, "Vocaloids" have taken on a whole new meaning for us Girls.  It's really important to us, mainly because of all the warm, happy memories that we made with you two.

Believe me.  If it weren't for you Twins, I probably wouldn't have met KFC or Yoshi-kun or even Akito-kun D: I mean, I don't know if you remember, I was quite the anti-social, shy, study-freak, library-obsessed girl when I first met you and Kinata-kun =___= It was a boring first-year in 2010.  I was miserable!

But then...Kinata-kun and you were the whole reason why we Girls joined JSA in the first place.  From there, after that San Jose trip? I just had to go change my major--not only because Anemone-san encouraged me too--but because San Jose changed the way I saw the world :O I never knew how big or how amazing traveling was--it was just incredible, Konata-kun.

It made me cry.

I became a more stronger, social, outgoing person because of you and Kinata-kun.

Because I became a more social, outgoing person, I just HAD to go talk to Akito-kun and invite Yoshi into our FUN JAM group :O You two weren't around all that much at the time...but it didn't stop me from thinking, "Konata-kun and Kinata-kun changed my life by going out of their way to meet me. I want to pass on this 'gift of awesome-ness' to someone out there too, someone who needs excitement and adventure too!"


And so, I want to tell you that although we may seem like we're too busy with our new friends, we will never forget you.  I'm sorry that all of our plans that were made with you and Kinata-kun blew over, mainly because it was our fault; we're still really sorry about it.  I'm sorry that we all had to change so quickly...and sorry that we haven't keeping touch lately too.  So many things to be sorry for, because you were probably hurting all this time, but we never really sat down and talked about it.


But you're still one of the coolest guys in our eyes, Konata-kun (and yes, same goes for your brother).




Love,


Yoko-chan <3