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Name: Yoko Tsuki
Age: 19
Occupation: Art student
Dream: Working for Disney, a land of where smiles and rainbows bounce hand-in-hand >:)
Nightmare: Living in a gloomy, gray place where people do not appreciate Art ;o;


Name: Mizu Hatsuri
Age: 20
Occupation: Dance/Costume Design student





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Part 1: Yoko's RANT
Sunday, October 16, 2011 @ 7:10 PM

And so…Mizu-chan’s Story Arc has finally, FINALLY come to a clean close (hopefully…I think…).

I’m so happy that everything’s come to a final ending now, and now that Yoshi-kun finally found out about everything and had it settled with us Girls…*sighs of relief* Whewwwww~~ I can BREATHE! FINALLY! GAHHH~!!! I’ve let Kuro-Yoko run around for far too long…and the aftermath of her rampaging is slowly settling down… *sighs again* Finally, finally, finally….!!!

I don’t regret my cussing and blunt talks, however.

Sometimes, you have to be cruel in order to be kind. Old cliché saying but whatever.  I used to wonder how that was even possible but yesterday made me understood it completely.  Gomen ne, Mizu-chan, if I was being a bit harsh…but I just couldn’t be “nice” anymore.  Gomenasai.

Everything happened in a blur, mina-san.

All I know that I was upset that the whole thing didn’t blow over after the 1st confrontation.  I was frustrated that no one was doing anything, really.  Even more, no one was even talking about it.  I wanted to hear some inputs from other people.  Some blunt honesty.  I was tired of hearing myself talk.  Tired of hearing just Sakana-san talk.  I wanted to look, to hear, to feel some truth from someone else for a change.  It wasn’t fair for us both.  I was tired of pretending.  I hate pretending.

And yes, when I confronted Mizu-chan, I let everything out.  I was blunt. I was just basically saying whatever was in my mind.  Everything that I was holding back for so long.

And yes, when I confronted Yoshi-kun, I was angry with him.  I was absolutely furious when he was “non-chalantly” saying his side of the story so coolly.  Like it was no big deal.  After what we Girls went through…I really wanted to slap someone silly there.  More so, I never realized how big of a fool I was truly…  I couldn’t even look at Yoshi-kun when he tried to confront me again after talking to Mizu-chan.  And when we both finally made some amends…I was completely quiet.  I didn’t even want to talk to anyone after a while.  I was thinking…

It was my fault for feeling so resentful…even after making amends.  I was still angry after everything was “back to normal.”  After crying my eyes out.  I was angry at myself.

I…always thought my friends were the fitting images of my ideals.  I had ideals or high expectations of them.  I don’t know why…but I just did.  So, when this Story Arc started and everything began falling apart, I was upset…because the people who I thought they were supposed to be…started to crumble as well.  These images fell before my very eyes…and even what I thought of Yoshi-kun.  It broke my heart when all of a sudden, I realized that I had NO HEROES. NO ROLE MODELS. I had no one to look up to.

But I still had who I deem as “friends.”

Chronos* and I talked much afterwards, the next day, when he was going to drop me off at home—after the whole Haunted House event, Sleepover, and Hanford trip.  He told me, “Honestly…Yoko, I think you have too much high expectations from them…and sometimes…I just can’t help but feel sorry for you.  I’m sorry that you had to go through all that…and I’m sorry but…you can be too trusting sometimes.”

I can’t help but trust too much, have too much faith, or…maybe…be too nice or something.

I always thought it was easier to believe in some crazy stuffs, to believe in people…when really, there is nothing left to believe in.  I can’t help, hoping and hoping…for the better.

And so…when everything began withering, fading away—when I found out about the things I didn’t want to know or everything at all…I couldn’t help but feel angry.  I’ve never felt so stupid before in my life, so weak, so stupid.  I’ve become so dependent—I let other people see me cry (Gosh, I NEVER let people see me cry!!! What’s happening?!!)—I’ve never gotten so angry at my own friends—so worried—so stressed out…over a “tiny” thing called “friendship.” I’ve never had friends like these before.  Before I met the Girls and everyone, “friendship” was a total LIE. They were nothing but lies, myths, stories.

But this was REAL.

…I honestly felt completely “abandoned” when people started telling me that they were “tired of being in charge” or the ones being responsible for some crazy things.  I’ve never been disappointed in so many people before in my life.

However, when everything blew over, during the Sleepover…I saw that all I needed was just…basically the FUN JAMMIES.  Mizu-chan.  Yoshi-kun.  Chronos…  Akito-kun…  Sakana-san… I saw that all I really needed were not HEROES, ROLE MODELS, and the such.  I just needed my friends—the people they were all along—I needed them for who they really are.  I just needed to accept that part of them, their flaws, everything.

…What a night it was, indeed.

Even now, I still find it amazing, readers, that we’ve come so far as a group. Within ONE week.  Can you believe that? Gosh, that’s like…a TV drama series with 30 episodes in ONE week =o=
And Friday night? Completely crazy. FIVE episodes—each an hour or two long—in one night =o=

That’s hardcore, mannnn…

And when I finally got home yesterday afternoon? All those drama episodes must’ve been so overwhelming, that I knocked out for 15 hours. 15 hours of sleep there, people… I could’ve worked on my homework and crap…but instead, I ignored everything and went to get some sleep, yo… =o=

I love my friends.  No matter how silly, ridiculous, lame, cheesy, crazy, stupid, smart-ass, pervy, pedo…they can all be.


-your amazed Yoko-chan =__=

P.S. Geez, I DESERVE BETTER SAKE, PEOPLE! SWEET ONES THIS TIME! YOU KNOW, THE WHITE POWDERY CRAP?!! GAHHHH! I WANT MI MUCHO SWEET SAKE! THEY BETTAH BEH GOOD, BETTER TOP-NOTCH STUFFIEES NEXT TIME! *Fume fume fume*