Who was it?

No one other than one of my best buddies from last semester, Chronos* ;D

I was really, really happy when he and I talked for a longggg~ time (mainly because he was tutoring me in Math~ yay~!).  It also has been a while since we’ve talked about what’s going on in our lives and all the drama or stress we’re currently going through.  We also shared our career goals, our dreams, and where or what we want to do after this year.  Our first year as college freshies…

It was sort of sad (mainly because I might not see him as much as I used to…).

He told me that I’ve become more social and outgoing; though I’ve been more recently laid-back, he also noted that I’m “more daring” now and that it’s “good.” *Hugs him* Arigato~ Chronos~!

I’m glad that I’ve changed overall—as a person since the start of my Freshman year here at the University.  I’m glad…that I met the FUN JAM and although there’s no telling how long I will be able to stick around for them or what will happen to me, I want to let you all know that you all are probably among the many best things that has happened to me in a long, long time.  For that, I’m grateful to have met the JAMMIES.

I used to be a complete loner (No, Ichigo-san, I didn’t even eat lunch with someone like Celsi-chan or even had anyone to talk to during break… Sad, lonely life.)—but I was really used to being alone. I used to be a quiet outcast (especially with the Hmong peers), because I was just “too smart” or “too open-minded.” I never really felt like I had a “place.”  I used to be extremely shy (until I met Yano, and I just began introducing myself to random people because he motivated me to?).  I used to keep everything to myself a lot—because I wanted to be more independent.  I found a lot of people distractive.  I used to think that if I wasn’t meant to have a lot of friends because they can’t accept me for who I really am, then, they’re not worth my time. I gave up on trying to please EVERYONE because in the end, it’s futile—it’s worthless—it’s a huge joke to me.

But…I guess the JAMMIES changed all that.

A lot of people still criticize me for “changing.” But I know they’re just people who couldn’t accept me for being just ME. This is me…the REAL me, who’s been waiting to come out from all those years… I hate it when those people want me to “go back to the way I was”—because they had so many IDEALS of me…that I just didn’t want to fulfill.  They never even knew my favorite color =___= or asked what I want out of life itself.

Take me for who I am.

And gosh, who would’ve ever thought that I would be cosplaying with the JAMMIES as well? I used to think it was really WEIRD, but FUN and DARING.  Look at me now =___= I am “Rin.” Lol~~ Life is really funny and ironic~ It’s only more FUN if you cosplay with other cosplayers—not just admire their bravery.

My 1^st year here at the University made me want to live life to the fullest, and so far, the only regrets I have are pretty much the times I wished I DID something I wanted to do…but didn’t do it.  Ichigo-san, Celsi-chan, and the others have taught me that it doesn’t matter what others think of you, just be yourself and do almost whatever you want—because in the end, there’s only one life to live…and that life is yours.  Don’t live your life for others, and if people can’t accept you for who you REALLY are, then, obviously…they’re not worth your time. 

Arigato, Chronos. You may be a baka, who ‘s always lecturing me about the “sensitivity” of men and what men are really like =___=~~~and maybe I’d rather listen to Shayne than to you, but~ sighs*~ you are still among the best buds I can always turn to—when I need an ear.  Hopefully, maybe someday, we might end up working in the same city :D Yay~ I’ll treat you to sushi then ;)

I also want to thank one SPECIFIC JAMMIE~~ but I don’t want to say the name.  If it weren’t for this person, I wouldn’t have met or joined the group at all in the first place~ Lol~ I still laugh about it whenever I would recall the first time I met this JAMMIE~ They were always “popping out of nowhere” and greeting me with that super bright, happy smile~ I used to think that this person was “weird”~ but now, I just have so much to tell this person.  I’m too embarrassed to tell them face-to-face, so I guess you all can figure it out on who I’m exactly talking about? Lol~ I want to thank you, though, for everything you’ve done for me. You’re such an awesome person and so friendly too ;D I wish I’ve gotten to know you earlier since last semester, but oh well~ I’m here.  If it weren’t for you as well, I wouldn’t have been part of JSA as well and gone out to see the world a little more.  I had some of the best fun I’ve ever had in my life because of JSA and the JAMMIES, and although maybe it’s a bit too much, I would thank you over and over again—to the thousands~!!! Gahhh~ Arigato >__< *bows*

To Ichigo-san and Celsi-chan, I want to tell you two that I’m really grateful for meeting you two as well~ You two…uhh…convinced me to actually COSPLAY…. I still have to figure out HOW you two did it =__= but I really don’t remember where everything clicked~lol~ I’m sooo~ slow….but, hey, you two are there to point out my horrible sense of directions :D ~ You girls are also there whenever I need to sort out my personal issues T^T, my whining, my fear of corruption, my strange—random curiosities, and my naïve decisions… Arigato~ I really do hope that in the near future, our sisterhood will be even stronger than before >:D I sense a drawing bonding experience within weeks~~ (*coughs* Fanime!)~~ Yay :3

To Anemone-san, I want to say that you’re probably the first friend I’ve shared my biggest dreams with~! XD Feeling ultra-special? After I told you about them, I really got to major thinking, and I even went as far as changing my major~! XD Because of you, I’m wayyy~ more happier and excited about my future career goals than ever before… I really want to thank you again and again and again~~ >__< Gahh~ I’m so happy now~ and I’m really glad that I have someone like you, supporting my dreams :D ~ Even now, I hope that we two will become better friends in the near future~~ and I too hope that you’ll find awesome people like us in Japan when you go teach there :D We’ll never forget you~~~

To the Twins, I know this is weird…but you two have done a lot for me and the others.  I’m probably going to speak for “their” behalf; however, you two have no idea how much of an impact you’ve brought upon us.  Sure, you two are all about biking, discount sales, eating healthy food or going through the pescatarian style~~but your lecturing, your knowledge-sharing moments, and your wild-crazy-yet-awesome-epic ideas are just…lol~ so awesome~! I also want to tell you two that if it weren’t for you guys, Ichigo-san, Celsi-chan, and I wouldn’t have joined JSA at all.  We would’ve been still living a “boring” lifestyle, and we wouldn’t have made so many awesome memories with all the other JAMMIES. I really hope that all of us would be even better friends in the future, and although there may be a few conflicts here and there, we would definitely overcome it :D You two are among the most AWESOME people I’ve met so far in life, so be yourselves~ and never change :)) In fact…I still can’t believe your influence has even gotten us to be more healthier people~~ Amazingggg~ Twins are so sugoi~~ Arigato for everything, you two~~

-Your grateful dreaya >__<