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Mizu Hatsuri Tsuki Yoko

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Name: Yoko Tsuki
Age: 19
Occupation: Art student
Dream: Working for Disney, a land of where smiles and rainbows bounce hand-in-hand >:)
Nightmare: Living in a gloomy, gray place where people do not appreciate Art ;o;


Name: Mizu Hatsuri
Age: 20
Occupation: Dance/Costume Design student





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I lit a candle and placed it upon the stage
Thursday, October 13, 2011 @ 5:40 PM

Hellou everyone Mizu here

First of all did everyone like Yoko and I's little Kingdom Hearts fanfiction? ^^
...........bad segway is bad........
Anywho, today's touchy feely subject I want to talk about is forgiveness. Lately this week in happy town so many drama bombs have been dropped its like Europe in WWII =.=. Monday was probably the worst of all that I have yet to encounter......until today. You see monday we were able to resolve it and things have gotten for the most part back to normal... Until today I got a very mal-timed phone call that had just sent me in to a depression all over again. (Yoshi-kun, I'm sorry if I worried you hun and thank you for the lolipop *feels like a little girl*) Yoko-chan and Saka told me what my rational side has been telling me for a long time, that everything's going to be fine, it was just bad luck but everything is okay and your friend's still love you and don't think bad about you. God will forgive this sin and my other sins but how long will it be before I forgive myself?

When I listened to that voice mail I could feel myself shaking. I dropped my phone on the table and ran out of the building before I could let anyone else see me break down, from the strong (slightly tsundere) mother figure of the group to the scared little child that I truly am, (as if running as if a bat outta hell was chasing me was strong in the first place). When I got outside the light and heat of the sun was beating down upon me and I couldn't breathe. When yoko-chan followed me out and held me that was when I finally released tears that I had been holding back for months.

I thought I had gotten over this, how could one phone call undo it all?

Dear readers I am afraid that the sin I have committed I can't reveal on this blog. But while everybody else may see otherwise, I can't quite bring myself to forgive myself for it. Seven months ago I was a very unfortunate situation, and while I wish I can just go on like it never happened, and smile truly for those who love me, in the back of my mind there is that little voice that tells me that I don't deserve it.  It was today, while thinking about monday and today. Seeing the look in Yoshi's eyes when he offered me the pop, when he asked "what's up". When I heard Saka's tired voice ask "what's wrong" and when I felt Yoko's small hands wrap around my shoulders. Had I really been so selfish as to put my friends through all this? All this worry? Simply because I cannot bring myself to forgive myself for a crime that I had no intention of comitting? How long must I make everyone I love suffer like this? How long must I keep shedding tears that no matter what won't undo what's been done? How long until I can convince myself that it was just an accident and everything will be okay?


Readers my question for you is this, have you ever had done something that you could not forgive yourself for? Have you forgiven yourself yet, if you have what made you realise it?

I want to forgive myself but I don't know how, I want to smile for my friends so they can smile too, but how can I?

Till Next Time
dftba
-Mizu